I'm back; sort of.

Killing time, waiting for the washer & dryer to get done..there is nothing on tv, facebook is not changing, and into my brain pops 'my blog." my poor neglected blog. I used to visit this daily. I loved to spew my thoughts all over the interweb. So much in my life has changed since I last used this.

Justin and I are going strong, even though in May of 2011 we got divorced. Through a long process we made our way back to each other. He is such a huge part of my life and this coming December we will have been together a total of eight years. I cannot believe that he has been in my life for that long. It is surreal to me that we have gone away from each other time and again, yet we manage to always make our way back together.

Another thing that has changed is that I am now a mother. A little over eight weeks ago, I had a son. He is the light of my life and I could not imagine my life more full. He is happy & healthy and such a joy. He is easier than I thought a baby would be. I thought life would really change when you had a child, and it does, but not in the way that I thought it would.

Here is my boy at seven weeks old. ♥

Back to work I go; Monday.

      After 13 months of being off work, Monday marks the very first day back to work. I am overjoyed by this. But a little stressed out, mostly because I have not worked in THIRTEEN months. && I have zero work clothes anymore. While working at the hospital I wore scrubs quite a bit. Next week, I will get one final week of unemployment and I will use that to get some clothes for work. I am so excited. :) 

i need to vent;

i am unhappy.
i am frustrated.
i am ready to burst.

i changed.
for you.
i changed everything.
for you.

and you..do you
notice. do you notice
the way we were before.

do you remember us.
do you remember the way
that we were.

something never change.

Whoooa;


   Hello Hello! It's been awhile. Life has definitely changed quite a bit since the last time that I have posted. I have gone through so many life changing events & through it all there has been a constant, which I am kinda wondering if that is the problem. 

Dear 24,

Dear 24,

  You have been by far the worst year of my life.

I cannot wait to get rid of you as a year of age.

 I am over it.

I hate you & I have hated you the whole time!

 So PLEASE July, come & then I can move on to 25.

Thankyouverymuch.

Well Well Well. :)

Pretty much, I love my life. :)

I have so many things in my life that I am thankful for.

My life is so perfect, even when it sometimes is in shambles.

But when I look around there are not many things that I would change.

I have a wonderful support system. People who love me.

 A college degree that is literally right around the corner.

And everything else falling into place nicely. :) 

Too blog or not to blog; is that really a question?

Hello. Hello. Hello. Yes. I know that it has been about fiiiive million years since I have been actively blogging, but I am now in a class where there are five weeks left & I am completely done with it. With nothing better to do with my time, and my need to blog growing larger.. You all get to get reaquianted with me. :) Hope you're all super duper excited. I hope to start blog hopping around and visiting you all soon. :)

My life is going pretty amazing, with the usual Shelby bumps in the road--but all in all..it is great. I am half way through my fourth term of school, and after this only two more & I will have my associates degree in Healthcare Admin. I am excited about that..school seems to be really dragging. I am going to continue on at another school to get my bachelors--which Lord help me--will go quickly & not kill me in the process.

J & I are pretty amazing. We have been actively ttc..which is frustrating, and wonderful all at the same time. We are on month seven of zero birth control, with not so much as a late period. I have started a weight loss regimen, working out (swimming & walking more), and J is on a strict no bath policy--most cause he's probablly boiling his little men. :)

The dogs--ohh man my dogs. Three of the most muttly dogs ever. :)


  Well-- I am outta here

you really want to know..?

I have a sister who is 19 years old, who is dating one of my ex boyfriends. A man that I thought I would marry, a man that I talked about marriage with. My last boyfriend before I met Justin. I am throughly disgusted by the whole thing. This man is 26..or will be in July, he is married..but I guess he recently served his wife with divorce papers. K has so much potenital..I am not sure why she would settle for a man who is unavailable on so many levels. He is currently in afghanastan. He is not a nice guy and when he and her were out with family he was mean and picked on my youngest sister. His mother and sisters are beyond crazy and have served time in various jails. I am honestly just disapointed by her decisions.