Thursday, January 22, 2009

is dreaming of becoming well again..

blah.. i am super duper sick, and I do not like it what so ever.

Kaitlyn has a game friday; and I totally need to be able to scream my little heart out!! But yeah.. I am going to go home, let my dogs out and sit in the shower.


wish me luck on getting well.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Currently accepting life..as a shelby. :]

The past year of my life has been filled with sadness, and hope and prayer. And sooo many many more things. My mum's dad passed away in March, and my great-grandma in October, one of my best friends in November, and someone who I had become so close to in the past couple years, Dallas passed away in December.

Everyday I wake up, thanking the lord that I am still awake; roll over kiss Justin to make sure he's still with me, thank the lord; say a prayer for strength throughout the day, ask Jesus to watch over Julie, Katie, Taylor, Chris, Aubrey, Grandma Shrock, My mom and all of the people that were close to Dallas, Laura, Grandpa Curtis and Grandma Gates. I never realised how close I was to some of those people I was until they were gone, or how much I had missed out on knowing them a little better. I am thankful that I got to spend the time with each of them that I did. Getting to know Grandma a little better when she was so sick, and close to the end. Sitting next to her bed; her talking, me writing notes because her hearing was gone. Dancing with Dallas on his 21st birthday. Which was one of the funnest nights I have had. Going to dinner with him. The movie nights that we had. Or all the times we had when all the cousins were together.
And Laura; oh how much Chris and Aubrey miss her. She was such a strong amazing women. Miss her more than ever.



I know that I need to spend everyday living life to the fullest, so for now that's all I am going to write, now I am off to read Katie's blog. And then upload some pictures. :] God Bless.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

hello hello...and welcome to shelby's world.

Hello Hello.

I am a little new at this thing. I feel as though I have so many things to say and no where to put it. I live a life through my head. Just sitting here dreaming about what could have been or what might be. I live in a small town, with my boyfriend. Who is amazing and I stuggle with my family every day to show them just how amazing he is. Hopefully one day they will love and accept him as much as I do.


Well.. thats all for now I will write more when I can.

Shelby