Friday, February 26, 2010


this weekend; i will be spending the weekend with;
this boy.

watching him
do this.

and we will probablly do a little
of this.

I will
all about it when I am back.

Hope you all have a lovely weekend! I have decided to do a round of....ASK ME go ahead...ask away!


Fill in the blank FRIDAYYY. ♥

I am so super duper excited that today is friday.
You honestly have no idea. And so far today has
been pretty close to awesome! I am driving my
sister in-laws car, which is super sweet. I got thee
best coffee today, from a little coffee shop that I
wish was in Cottage Grove, but is not. And I am going
to ask my manager if I can't get off work early, so we
can leave early. :) I still need to get the oil changed in
Mil's car & go home to see if my federal check has gotten
there..and then we are off for a fun filled weekend in
L I N C O L N C I T Y, O R E G O N.

1. when i am nervous i get butterflies in my stomach and feel like shutting down.
2. my favorite item in my closet is my
green sweater from Old Navy, I honestly would live in it, if I could..but I am sure people would notice, if all I wore was my green sweater, jeans & some tank.
3. cuddling up with ellie, jake, tucker and justin all in the cal-king size bed watching a movie is my favorite thing to do when i need to relax
4. my favorite childhood memory is riding horses, I lived at the barn when I was little, practically until J and I got together..I still rode quite a bit when he and I got together, but school & work took the place of horses, and I had to put down my mare, so, I was without a horse. :(

5. something you may not know about me is
i am kinda a not nice person. I really love all my friends, and people that I don't really know, but the whole act of forgiving someone, is a very hard thing for me to do. I do not like to forgive someone and allow them to be apart of my life again. I feel like I gave you a chance & you chose to not respect that. That was your decision, so why should I feel bad about making the decision for your exit from my life. One of thee only people that I forgive, all the time, is Justin & I am not sure why. lol. Lord knows he has done so many things that are unforgivable, yet I still forgive.
6. a true friend is something I do not have every many of. I can count the amount of people that are true friends to me on one hand. which is kinda sad.
7. something i hope people think of when they think of me that I am caring, and someone that they can trust, that & that I look like a size two & have great hair. :) :) :)

That is all people. Go check out lauren's blog & LINK UP!!
fill in the blank friday.


Thursday, February 25, 2010

i burn water.

Once. That's all. It never happened again.
But yes, once..I did burn up one of my
grandma's pans & the counter..and the floor.
Here is the story; e.n.j.o.y. ♥

So, one grammy went out of town & she asked J and I to house sit for her. J and I agreed and moved in for our week long stay. My grandma has an amazing house, that my Papa Gary built for her a long time ago. Well the flooring and the counter tops..are not that cute. My grandma hates them, but her new husband doesn't think they need replaced yet, as the only thing wrong with them, is that they are a bit outdated.

Justin and I started making dinner one night while house sitting, and I was making something that required me to boil water. I put the water on to boil, and went to snuggle up on the couch with Justin until it boiled..well I must of gotten caught up in the show, because when I started to smell something cooking..I went to the kitchen to check. Yep..all the water had boiled out of the pan, the bottom of the pan had melted & as soon as I picked it up it SPIT HOT-MOLTEN-LAVA everywhere. I screamed. Threw the pan on the counter [yes, it burned it, making a round black spot] Justin came to the rescue and threw the pan in the sink, and in the process stepped on lava, burning his foot and causing him to have a cute little teardrop scar on the bottom of his foot. And now there are little burn spots on the floor where the lave hit.

You might be thinking- were you asked back to house sit?!? Of course not, my grandma loves her house, she doesn't want it burned down. :) My sister in-law on the other hand..she's brave. She lets us house sit & I only occasionally catch things on fire there. :]

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Random Dozen;

Random Dozen; Brought to you by-- 2nd cup of coffee [link at the bottom]

1. Have you ever fired a gun or shot a bow and arrow?
Yes, I have. I actually owe two guns. A rifle which I hunt deer and other game with and a shot gun which I shot birds with. I have shot a bow, 3 times. :] My husband, and his sister's family are all archery hunters, and I thought I would try to get into it, but it is kinda scary to shot the bow, so I will stick with my guns.

2. Do you know where your childhood best friends are?
I know where most of them live. I keep in contact with some of them, but the ones that I really considered my best friends, have more or less exited my life. I have one, K, she and I have been best friends since kindergarten and she's a friend for life.

3. Do you usually arrive early, late, or on time?
That depends on if I’m with hubby or not. Usually if I don’t have hubby with me I’m early or on time…but many times when he is with me I’m late…for differing reasons.

4. Are you more of a New York or California type?
Hmm, I am more country. I don't think me and a city as large as New York would get along, but there are parts of New York state that have places to ride horses, and such, so maybe I would like that area.

5. Do you have a special ring tone?
I have a couple different that, I change up whenever I feel like it.

6. What is your favorite type of chip?
sweet maui onion potatoe chip. my weakness.

7. Best comedy you’ve ever seen is ….
I’ll have to get back to you on that one.

8. Have you ever cut your own hair? To quote Dr. Phil, “How’d that work for ya?”
Yes, and I always regret it. My hair lady is now 2 minutes from my work, if I have the urge to cut my own bangs, I go to her on my lunch break.

9. If you were going to have an extreme makeover, would you rather it be about your house or your personal self?
Thee house, I would love to have a gorgeous house for J and I to live it.

10. Are you allergic to anything?
bull-sh*t. :) That is all.

11. Why is it so hard to change?
Because it is kinda hard to admit that we are not on the right path. :]

12. One last question dedicated to February love: CS Lewis said, “To love is to be vulnerable.” Please share one example of that assertion or share any thought you’d like to about this topic.
I married a man, that made me feel vulnerable. We have had times of mistrust and times where neither one of us were a 100% sure of anything that "was" our relationship. We are both vulnerable to eachother & it was so hard. Life is so much better now, but there was a time when life wasn't.


wednesday make me smile.

Three posts in one day, what did you all do to deserve this? hehe. :]

The other two were more about killing time, than anything. I am totally and fully excited for this weekend. As some of you may has been a tab bit crazy. J and I are waiting very impatiently for our taxes to get here. I go online every day..sometimes multiple times a day to find out if our return has been processed. Our state taxes are the ones that I thought would be here soon, but..wait- OH YES! IF I WERE NOT AT WORK I WOULD DOING CARTWHEEEEEELS. YES..YOU HEARD ME- CARTWHEELS [and I am a big girl..sooo that might not work that great. ::raises eye brow::]

whew, now that I got that out of the way; I am really excited. We are going to do so many things with our tax money & It really just needs to getttt here. Anyways;; I am totally and fully getting off task.

My car broke down on Monday [yes, two weeks before the projected date of us getting our taxes back, yes a week before Justin and I's fabulous vacation out of town] So we have had to cut into some of our trip money to buy parts for the little red beast & it was looking like we weren't going to be able to go, which was honestly devastating to me. I don't know why, but I was so disapointed. I really really need to have this weekend away. I worked last weekend, and I didn't want to have a weekend off & not be able to go out of town & be stuck at my mother & father in laws. Oh I didn't mention that..did I? J and I live about 15 miles from town, and there was no-one that could come and get me, every day and take me to work, then pick me up & bring me back home..for what could have been two weeks, so J decided we would stay at his moms, also so he could work on the car when he got the parts for it.
My relationship with my well..non-existent. I do not have a relationship. They and I have had more than our fair share of problems in the 4.5 years I have been J's significant other. They don't care for me, I don't care for them. Up until 3 days ago, I had not set foot in their house for over a year. I had not seen since Christmas, and then I did not speak to either of them. Justin and I did not attend Thanksgiving, because it was at their house & we were told that I was not welcome. So fast forward now..spending from 4:30pm-7:15am in their house, without a vehicle, is killing me. And the thought of being stuck there, this weekend, after we had planned such a fun trip to the coast. But everything is working out in our favor.
My beautiful sister in-law is letting us drive her car to the coast to meet them over there & we have a little extra money & hopefully our taxes will get there by Friday and I can deposit the money in the bank, if not, I will have to have someone bring it into town, and deposit it, and hopefully they don't hold it. :)

Other than that, today has gone quite well, I got a massage on my lunch and my neck/shoulder/back have not felt this good in years. :] I had some pretty knarly knots in there. But not anymore. Alrighty, well I am going to browse the blog world..hasta la pasta.

I leave you with a question; Can you tie a
cherry stem in a knot with your tongue?


ABC's of SLH. :)

ABC's Of Me!
I saw this on a blog a while back and thought this would be so fun to share! So here are the ABC's of me! Oh & I am addicted to any type of survey. :)

A - Age: 23, I will be 24 in July.
B - Bed size: Cal. King..complete with a husband and three dogs. :) [with tax $ we are buying a complete new bed set which I am beyond excited about- down comforter, duvet, 4 new pillows, sheets & pillow cases. yay.]

C - Chore you hate: any. [my mum spoiled me. horribly and did all the house work. i have no drive to clean & usually only clean when I know people are coming out.]
D - Dog's name: Jake, Ellie & Tucker.
E - Essential start your day item: 16 oz. icced blondie from badoobaz. :]

F - Favorite color: yellow. I love anything and everything yellow.

G - Gold or Silver or Platinum: Platinum

H - Height: 5'9"
I - Instruments you play: None. I am not all.

J - Juice: cranberry with grape.

K - Kid(s): none. other than my dogs, but I have plenty of names picked out. [note; if i list them & i find out you use one of them..i will track you down & be very mean to you..maybe even kick you..twice.]

girls names; collins elyse , kaidence evelyn, kholbi blake, aniston jolene

boys names; saywer jackson, easton blaine, caleb todd, braxton troy

L - Living arrangements: with my husband, three dogs, a cat [that never stops meowing]..all smushed together in a two bedroom two bath house.
M - Mom's name: SJK

N- Nicknames: cricket [from j], bug, roo, ebb, sheb, shobe [mom & sisters] ferd [grandma pat]

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Other than for work, never. :]

P - Pet Peeve: people who smack their food when they eat.

Q - Quote:
"Life is choices."

R - Right handed or left handed: Right

S - Siblings: three sisters; whom I wish I spent more time with, but that just isn't in the cards.

T - Time you wake up: During the week, 5:15. I shower & then go back to bed for an hour, and by then, my hair is almost dry, so I can do whatever I want to it & it takes me like 20 minutes to get ready.
U- Underwear: yes..? I just bought three new pairs, which I am way excited about. :]
V - Vegetable you dislike: brussel sprouts..are the only ones I can think of..but I love most veggies.

W - Ways you run late: not paying attention to the time, I am usually on time, or early.

X - X-rays you've had: uh. I don't think that I have ever even had an xray. :]

Y - Yummy food you make: lasagna, chicken pasta, really anything J and I yummy.

Z - Zoo favorite: Giraffes. I cannot wait to have a baby so I can make their room a zoo themed room.

Hope you enjoyed learning more about me!! Have a fabulous day!

If I were..

If I were a month, I’d be August. [the best month in oregon.]
If I were a day of the week, I’d be Saturday
If I were a time of day, I’d be sunset.
If I were a planet, I’d be Earth [thee only planet I know of with coffee.]
If I were a sea animal, I’d be octopus.
If I were a direction, I’d be up.
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a red leather chair.
If I were a liquid, I’d be water with a lemon.
If I were a gemstone, I’d be a diamond so I could sparkle and never break
If I were a tree, I’d be Cherry Blossom
If I were a tool, I’d be a hammer.
If I were a flower, I’d be a gerber daisy.
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be sunny & 80 degrees.
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a piano
If I were a color, I’d be yellow.[it makes me smile.]
If I were an emotion, I’d be proud.
If I were a fruit, I’d be a grape. [how i love grapes.]
If I were a sound, I’d be laughter
If I were an element, I’d be fire [i like it hot]
If I were a car, I’d be scion tc.
If I were a food, I’d be lasagna.
If I were a place, I’d be my grandma's living room.
If I were a material, I’d be chenille
If I were a taste, I’d be sweet
If I were a scent, I’d be jlo still.
If I were an object, I’d be pictures
If I were a body part, I’d be a pair of long legs.
If I were a facial expression, I’d be a smile
If I were a song, I’d be "feels like home" chantal kreviaski
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be flip flops.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

weekend out w. friends & family. ♥

This is Saturday before
Out with my lovely's
Can youuu tie a cherry stem in a
knot with your tongue?
My three favorite.

Justin & Chris.

Double date.

Chris. Me. J. & V,

Love those two.


lol. who knows.

scotticus & i.

testing to see if I was over the legal drinking/driving limit.

not that i would drive. buttt i wanted to see after two

drinks what my level was. it was .52..way over the legal

limit which is .08. :] yessss. I did it wrong though

because your supposed to wait 30 minutes

after your done drinking to test it.

this is my reaction to drunk driving.

my love.


one of my girls.

my lovely again.

two of my favorites.

one of my best friends.

life is so short.

today has been so trying. i witnessed a family lose a loved one. and i am just devastated for the family. please pray for them.


This is more serious of a blog, than I usually write..but I feel that people need to get involved.

My amazing, beautiful, SMART, funny cousin Katie, has left on another trip out of the US. She is going with a mission to stop human sex trafficing. Here are some links to her blog & to the organization she is going with.

I know times are tight for a lot of people, but even if you offer up a prayer for the children lost, the people working so hard to stop this horrible act, for the people doing the horrible things & for the families and friends affected by these acts. And if you are able to do more. Please do.

Please feel free to share this in your blog, or anywhere that you feel would help out.

All my love Kate, be careful. Never lose faith & stay strong.

survey sunnnday. ♥

today; i work until 330 and usually we are
fairly quiet. soo i plan on doing survey's
and searching the internet for ideas for things
that Justin and I [well mostly me] am going to buy
with our taxes.. I will put a rough draft list on here
s o m e w h e r e.

This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Most of these things, tend to get a little personal..I am an open book though. ♥

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
Absolutely. I love being able to breath, not smelling, having white teeth, and non-yellow walls of my house.

Ever been told "it’s not you, it's me?

Once, and it really was him..not me. :]

Are you excited for anything this week?
Well, more for the weekend & not the week. I work all week, but Friday after work we are leaving for Lincoln City for the Seafood & wine festival & the archery shoot. I am beyond excited.

Are you interested in anyone right now?
My husband..kinda. :) He's a little interesting. hehe.

Do you want to be single?
No, I enjoy being married.

Do you like to take walks?
Mhm, I think J and I need to start going on more walks, buut it is summer almost & it has been getting NICER outside. So hopefully.

Did you go out or stay in last night?

We ended up going to dinner out with Mil and Eric and the kids. And then we went home and I went straight to bed, but Gav and J stayed up & played video games.

How late did you stay up last night? 10. :]

Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
Almost 5 years ago. When J went from being a pest & cocky, to being someone that I wanted to spend everyday with.

Last three things you had to drink?
Water. Coffee. Gatorade.

Have you pretended to like someone?
More than likely. Any time I am around my mother in-law. hehe. :]

Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? Never. Love is such a strong word- and I don't use it lightly.

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
Uhm, yes. I am married. Only my husband though.

Is it hard for you to get over someone?
Yes. Very. Especially if you have been with the person for quite awhile.

What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
I will be almost off work. :] Well. Maybe. I am supposed to work til 330, but I might head out at 1 if we're slow.

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
Oh yes. I think that I have definatly gotten older & more mature. More understand of the people around me and their flaws and strengths. In the last year I have; gotten married, gotten the job of my dreams, been hired on full time to the job of my dreams & discovered that life is choices.

One thing you're not looking forward to?
Getting our taxes back.

Is there something that reminds you of someone every time you see/hear it?
My wedding songs. I love them. Eric Church; Loves your love the most & Chantal Krev-something; Feels like home. Oh how I love that song.

Can you get over people easily?
Not really. I remove people from my life, but I still miss them. They were apart of my life, because I actually did like them.

Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
Cry over the truth. I am in a marriage, that goes to a councelor. I cry over the truth quite often.

Explain your relationship status?
Married. Working on building a future, and hoping to get pregnant in the next two years.

Is something bothering you?
Not really. Just glad to be almost off of my anti-biotics. They have not been good to me.

How are things between the person you like/love?
Lovely. We have our issues, but life is pushing right along.

Did you take a nap today?
I WISH! I have so much to do today. :(

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
J. :(

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Multiple people.

What do you hear?
the tv.

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
Nope. Lately I have been so tired. Sleep is just so quick.

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?

Who is the last person you told you loved them?
My hubs

What's something that bothers you about girls?
I feel like the girls in my town..all try to hit on any guy, married or not. So unless they are married and understand the boundaries of- Hi, this is my husband, if you look at him like a piece of meat, and then try to touch him like he's a new purse- I will slap you. Twice.

Plans for the upcoming month?
Spring break with my neice & nephew. The archery shoot. Lincoln City. Getting insurance through work. Buying a new car. Buying a new wedding ring.

Who was the last person in your presence shirt less?

Flipflops or tennishoes?

What did you wear today?
Currently; Scrub botttom's. Two black tanks. A gray sweater. Crocs. Pony tail.

How many windows are open on your computer?

Do you believe in god?
Absolutely. I love God.

What are you doing after this?
Mm. Probablly drink some coffee. Sneeze a little [because that seems to be what I am doing today.], look online for things to buy with our taxes. :)

What are your siblings names?
Emeli, Kaitlyn and Kendal.

How tall are you?

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
It is. ♥

What's a word that rhymes with DOOR?

Name the shoe brand you are wearing?
ugg boots.

Do you have trust problems?
Not really.

Whats your favorite show?

Do you write notes on your hand?

Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?
not that i know of.

Would you be willing to live with your best friend?
Nope. Living with someone ruins friendships.

Kissed anyone who's name started with an A?
So long ago, I don't even think it counts..

Do you see your dad everyday?
Not really.

What are you excited for?
Getting a new car.

What is the last movie you watched?
Law abiding citizen

What time did you wake up today?

Last thing you ate?
Yogurt with fruit and granola.

Ever felt like you're not good enough?

Have you ever worn the opposite sex clothing?

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Piece of caaaaake. Going on 5 years.

What will you be doing this weekend?
Going out for Kelly's birthday. ♥

Friday, February 19, 2010

Fill in the blank FRIDAY- whew.

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1. If I could medal in an olympic event it would be a show jumper,in the equestrian part of it, because then I would get paid to ride horses, and that would mean that I have the time to actually ride, instead of just dream about when I used to ride daily.
2. If I was stranded on a deserted island I'd take Justin, an amazing book from my gram shrock [because she always finds good ones], a lighter, and some snack food, because when I get low blood sugar I get grouchy and then I pass out & passing out would ruin my sun tanning. :]
3. Not having a baby is/are my most irrational fear.
4. I'd rather eat dirt everyday, than have to hang out with any person that I don't care for everyday.
5. I am excited about this weekend. My eight year old niece and I are going to get mani/pedi's and I am way excited. She says some of thee funniest things, and it totally cracks me up. I cannot wait to have a child of my own.
6. I should really be nothing. I am at work & I am all caught up on work stuff, so I am able to just dink around online.
7. One of my favorite things in all the world is walking in the sunshine with Justin. Or hunting season. I love going out and driving around, or walking around with my husband, looking through the binoculars, and watching the sun rise and set. It really is fun, as long as I have food & a coffee. :]

Thursday, February 18, 2010


My taxes are FILLLLED. And I am so beyond friggen excited. So so so so excited. J and I are getting just under 1900 from Federal and just under 800 from State. We have some big big big plans for the money..

1. New pillows & a down comforter && a new duvet. Oh & new sheets.

Something darker, because we do have the dogs that sleep in our bed. But still nice.

2. A new car.

I cannot decide on what kind of car to buy. But I know that it is either going to be a truck 2000-2003 Toyota or some type of car. Honda or Toyota. I need to browse online for different models and decide what I like.

3. A Vacay.

We are going to spend the weekend in Lincoln City at an archery shoot with J's sister and brother in law. I am so excited. We're staying at Surftides and

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

busy. busy. busy.

I cannot believe that today is already Tuesday. It is totally crazy to me how fast time is flying by. This weekend was fairly busy & really fun. Friday night, Justin and I spent it just lounging around the house, watching movies.

Saturday, my best friend Chris from Idaho was in town and so he and Justin and a couple of our friends went out to the bar. I will post pictures as soon as I get them from a friend. :] I could go online and get them, but it would be such a long process, save them from facebook, email them to my work email and then upload them at work. I would rather she just sent me a zipped file and I can upload and delete. :] I had such a good time out. The girls all danced so much and my legs were absolutely killing me the next morning. But I had a blast. Chris is such a good guy, and he has had a lot of hard times thrown his way, it was nice to see him have a fun night without responsibility. :]

Sunday; Justin and I went to a burlesque show, which was kinda cool. But I did not feel good, my right eye was all swollen and itchy, so we went home fairly early. But we did get a chance to see my SIL and BIL. I made plans with my niece who is nine and we were going to go to a movie and walk around town, and have a girls day because she and I both had Monday off, but when I woke up in the morning on Monday, my eye was still swollen and itchey, so I ended up sleeping the entire day away.

I am going to take her next weekend and go get a pedicure with her, to make up for the day I had to bail on her. :] She is adorable, and I cannot wait. She says the funniest things. Bahhh. Makes me want a baby. hehe. ♥

Today has been so busy at work, I am going to get off of here and finish up my 2 in stack of paperwork. :]

Sunday, February 14, 2010

♥ because..I have nothing better to do. ♥

I always:

kiss justin good-by when i leave for work & tell ellis goodbye
want to look my best; no matter what.
have my phone with me
tell my mom I love her
I sometimes:
remember to floss my teeth
loss tract of goals
can be pretty mean to people
let my emotions get the best of me

I never:
miss a chance to snuggle in bed with a good book
wear my lap belt in my car
let other peoples opinions of what I should do influence my choices on what i do.
do anything crafty

1. How many piercing's do you have?
4 in one ear. 5 in the other. my belly button. another and i used to have my nose. and I want my conch.

2. I love the sound of.....?
ellie sleeping. she sounds so peaceful, snuggled up next to me, and she is quite the comfy snuggle buddy. ♥ my lab.

3. Favorite city?
I actually really love Seattle. I cannot wait to go on a trip up there.

4. Colts, Saints, or could care less?
Could care less. I don't watch sports other than Kaitlyn's basketball games, and even then hardly ever. :]

5. Frozen yogurt or ice cream?
ice cream. ♥

6. Favorite appetizer?
bruchetta. yumm.

7. What item in your closet currently makes you the happiest?
green sweater. hands down.

8.Favorite facial moisturizer?
Neutrogina. It has a small amount of spf. :]

9. If I had two hours to myself today, I'd take a nap, or read the book I keep trying to finish.

10. If I could travel anywhere today, I would go to Seattle zoo.

11. My wedding day seems so far ago.

12. Sometimes you're the boss other times you're just a peon .

13. Beauty is simplicity.

14. I would be embarassed if anyone knew I sometimes don't shut the door when I go to the bathroom.

15. Love at first sight is something that I am not sure I believe in. But I do believe in knowing that a person is going to make an impact in your life. The first night I met Justin, I knew there was something different about him, I knew that he would be something different in my life. He was just different than any other guy, and treated me so much better. ♥

Idaho Trip 2009

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Trip to see my Aubs & Chris.

Lake.River Trips

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These are from summer 2009 and some of spring. I love any trip where we take the dogs to the river or lake. :] And there are also rodeo pictures & BMD pictures.

Hunting 2009

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Hunting over eat with my hubby. No kills, which is a little sad, buttttt we did have an amazing time. :]

survey sunday.

Here are today's blanks to be filled in....

1. I am hoping my Valentine's day this year includes, a nice long nap with my hubby. We went out last night, and didn't make it home until 4, and I had to be up at 5:45 to get ready for work at 7. I am slightly hungover, and my throat is killing me from yelling, and my legs hurt a little from dancing, so a nap would be nice. Also, J and I are celebrating Valentines day on the 20th, after we both get paid. :]

2. My biggest guilty pleasure is , coffee. Even if I don't really have the extra money, I will still get a coffee on my way to work.

3. I am most proud of, my job & my life. I worked very hard to get the job that I am currently in. I took any shift that they offered, and never turned anyone down, even when I really wanted to not have to come into work. And it paid off, I was offered a full-time position, with 40 hours. :]

4. If I could choose one outfit to live in it would be, dark blue jeans, black tank top and my green sweater with my uggs. I get more compliments on that green sweater than anything else. I love that thing, and a pair of diamond earrings.

5. People are, dirty & most of the time snot nosed. I work in a hospital and everyone comes in hacking & gagging their polution all over my waiting room. lol..hense the reason I am constantly sick with some sort of sickness 75% of the time. :]

6. I would rather, take a nice hot bath than a shower.

7. I love my dog more than I like most people.

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Friday, February 12, 2010

Take your daughter to work day.

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My father is a logger. They cut the tree's to make products. It is his way of life. They replant all if not more trees than originally there. I love the smell of a logging job. :]

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Bloggest Loser;

I have recently signed up for Bloggest Loser. It is a group of "Big Bloggers who want to lose BIG"- Bloggest Loser is a contest and weight-loss networking group. It was formed so that people who wanted to lose weight could all do so together. [] Go there. Check it out.

I am going to try very hard to lose some weight. I was looking back at pictures of right when Justin and I got together, in 2005 and I weighed right at 215, I have since gained 50 pounds. That is ridiculous to me. I don't know when it happened. It seems like over night I went from a size 12-14 to a size 18-20. My body shape has stayed pretty much the same, just larger sizes.

I have been eating less, and I am going to get a gym membership. It is hard for me to work out alone. I would love to have someone to go work out with, but no one really has the extra time or money to go with me. I am going try to work really hard and at least have a semi-bikini body by summer and hopefully the following summer I will have my goal body.

Please anyone that reads this, please hold me responsible and ask how the weight loss is going. I will try to remember to update once a week. :]

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Consider me gone..

This is the sunrise
on my way home from
work the other morning,
over the lake right about
seven in the morning.
So r e f r e s h i n g.
So p r e t t y.

From Reba McEntire's new album,
Keep On Loving You)

What you're not saying is coming in loud and clear, we're at a crossroads here...
If I'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If I'm not that arrow to the heart of you
If you don't get drunk on my kiss
If you think you can do better than this then I guess we're done
Let's not drag this on Consider Me Gone

With you I've always been wide open, like a window or an ocean.
There is nothing I've ever tried to hide.
So when you leave me not knowin' where you're goin'
I start thinkin' that we're lookin', we're lookin' at goodbye.
How about a strong shot of honesty, don't you owe that to me...

If I'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If I'm not that arrow to the heart of you
If you don't get drunk on my kiss
If you think you can do better than this then I guess we're done
Let's not drag this on
Consider me gone.
Consider me a memory.
Consider me the past.
Consider me a smile in an old photograph, someone who used to make you laugh.

If I'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If I'm not that arrow to the heart of you
Then I guess we're done, let's not drag this on.
Consider me gone.
Consider me gone.
Consider me gone.
Just consider me gone

[Consider Me Gone lyrics from ]

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

once again sitting in limbo.

I am currently sitting in limbo. Justin isn't sure what he wants, or even if it is me that he wants. So here I am..sitting. Not sure of which direction to go, to walk away and be alone. To stay and wait while someone does their own thing, until they want to come home. That isn't fair to me. When he is home, we're good, and life seems normal. But as soon as I have anything to say about anything, he becomes a jerk. I am starting to feel like he is too coward to break up with me, and tell me that he wants a divorce, so he is being mean to me, and doing his own thing in hopes that I will be the one to pull the plug, and move on. So that he can put the blame onto me, and not have to take any responsibility for his actions.

I wish that if that were the way that it is, that he would be man enough to tell me.."It's over." I just don't forsee that happening though. He isn't the type to tell me anything, unless it is in regards to something that I do wrong.

What a crappy couple weeks. He has been horrible to me lately and I havn't even been able to enjoy getting my position. I feel guilty for getting a full time position..and I shouldn't. I worked my ass off for this job. I did everything anyone asked me to. I worked every crappy shift. I did it, not him.

welll...I am going to kill sometime doing survey's..I might post them on here..who knows.