Friday, October 30, 2009

pumpkin carving. :]

This last weekend J and I went to S&BIL house. Our Niece was carving her pumpkin. She wanted help soo bad, so uncle stepped in, and I started taking pictures. :] Here are a few from the night. <3

Monday, October 19, 2009

hunting with my husband. <3

Well, still no buck. I got 3 chances, with three different deer, yet they were all too small. They all were just little spikes. I was so disapointed. It has been pretty stormy lately so hopefully, if I am able to get out of work early enough I can get in a few good night hunts. I have a good feeling about this hunting season. Hoping that the weather stays nasty and cold, and then once hunting season is over, it gets nicer. :] I really want to do family pictures. :]

Love this pictue. :]
Cleaning off the glasses.

getting ready to walk into a unit.

one of my favorite.

hunting in the rain.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

in god we trust.

"Sometimes i would like to ask God why he allows so much poverty, famine and injustice in the World when he could do something about it... but i am afraid he might ask me the same question."

Friday, October 9, 2009

hunting.. cont.

Justin and I shall be out hunting for the next week.
Shall return..soon to the blog world. :]

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

hunting season. <3

hopefully. i will get a chance at a large deer, or frankly any deer at all, and i will be able to post lots of pictures of it on here. but until then, and until i can get my phone to work properly. i have three, from opening morning.

love watching the sun rise. :]

passanger seat. window down.

I wish you could see it in the pictures,

I have a hot pink shirt on,

which I am loving.

Life is going really well

right now. Pretty steady.

I am not extremely happy,

Yet, I am not extremely sad.

I just am.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

been awhile.

As much as I would love to get completely lost in my blog and write the millions of tiny emotions that I am feeling. I just can't. I cannot seem to accept defeat, or accept the challenge of accepting defeat. I love my life. Just something seems off.

I don't know how to explain off. I feel as though I didn't listen to my heart in a situation where I should of. I feel as though I needed something more and I didn't speak up.

Then something happens..something that brings you back to reality or shoots you over the moon. I am not sure what is real or what is fake, what could have been or what could never be. I know it is making any sence. I am just not ready to go there. Not with myself, and surely not with the world.

I try to remember this IS the life that I chose, this is the life I wanted. I knew things and I had accepted them for what they were, and then.

Then.. it all fell apart. Or maybe it came together. I really don't know.