Monday, August 31, 2009


Things I love about you from the very beginning;

The way you stared at me when I close my eyes, then you closed your eyes and I stared at you
How perfectly your hand fits in mine
How you seemed so strong on the outside, but I could tell you were so sweet on the inside
The way you said I love you, because you sounded so shy
How during that first time we were alone, when we held hands and talked for hours and finally kissed after so long
How you were so interested in my life and what I was doing
How you remembered everything I said to you perfectly
When you texted me randomly (as little as that may be)
When you told me I’m one of the most perfect girls you’ve ever met
How you were too shy to hold my hand, in case I didn’t want you to
The awkward moments - because they weren’t really awkward at all
Sitting at the table with your family and enjoying myself and you
Taking photo booth pictures with you and you made the best faces I’ve ever seen
The way you made me feel after we made out for an hour
How you told me I looked great every time we saw each other - despite how untrue I thought it was
How even on the coldest nights, you lent me your sweater
How much you have passions for things
Your laugh/smile
How you always made fun of me - I secretly loved it
What a loser you are, because I am too
How you admitted defeat and say sorry when I wouldn’t let you win a fight
The way you made the butterflies in my stomach flutter every time I saw your smile
How much you made me love you.
But now they are things of our future; you were my first love and I will never forget you or a single thing that I loved about you. And truthfully, I still love all of these things. There are so many more things, that are now; Ours.

It seems so surreal to me that..we've been apart almost 6 days. I don't like it. I don't like being away from you. I want to snuggle up with you, and be in your arms.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Honeymoon pictures; fiiiiinallly. :]

Yes, I know.

This was awhile ago.

Buttt..I have just not

had the time to do it,

STONE ME.

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honeymoon 2009.



After setting up the tent.


Breaking down camp.



my little worker bee.


Yes, we are one of those

couple that still

has thee original package.

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We stayed at tyee campground.



Lighthouse at Bandon.



Walking to the lighthouse.


We're there. :]



husband and wife.


We got a tour of the lighthouse.

It was soo much fun.



I dunno what the sign said.

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myyy husband.



the rocks.









this flag was so big.










this little farm house was so cool.







On our way home.

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We had such an amazing time on our trip.

Our dogs really missed us.

But it was a very nice end to all the maddness of
our crazzzzy life. :]


these are my people..this is where I come from..

I absolutely loooove this.
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china!?! like the country; YES!!

Today..I'm at work.. and sometime today, I have a meeting with the Director of Nursing, to talk about a job oppurtunity in the ER. I am really excited to talk to her about it, I would keep the job at the er/lab..and also work in the ER. After my meeting..I am offfffff.

Emeli and I have plans to go to United States Basketball Acedemy to watch my sister Kaitlyn play basketball against CHINA! The olympic team. I am beyond excited for her. She is playing them with her college basketball team. I cannot believe that she is already in College. It seems like just yesterday when we used to go and watch her play on the weekends when she was in 4th grade. And then traveling to all the different states to watch her play. It really is one of my greatest joys. To watch Kaitlyn play basketball brings tears to my eyes. I love to look at all of her pictures, and to go through the scrapbook that Emeli made for her. I hope that Kaitlyn plays well today;

To Kaitlyn; Put the brown thing in the round thing.- Todd Kronberger.

Play smart, foul hard.
:]

Thursday, August 27, 2009

[a hunting we will go..a hunting we will go..]

Well..not quite me. But verrrry soon. Justin leaves tonight to go over east. I am really not looking forward to 6 days without him. I was really hoping that I would get to go, but it is just not in the cards. I will be going over there in the middle of Sept which I am super duper excited about. I know that he will have a good time. But it is just going to be really lonely.

I have one more day of work, and then I am off for the weekend. I am so excited. I think that I am going to spend one whole day catching up on my sleep, and I miiight even upload pictures from our honeymoon, and from our trip over to the silvies earlier in the week.

I am really excited to get over to hunting camp so that I can take a ton of pictures of Justin and I, and the rest of the family. I wonder if my dad is going to buy his bow tag. He and Justin had been pretty into shooting together, but then my dad started working more, and Justin started going up to his brother in-laws house to shoot. So I do not know if my dad will end up hunting. It would be cool if he did. Just so he and Justin could go out after work sometime. But whoo knooows.

This blog really has nothing worth ready, and I am starving.. it's still early. But I didn't eat anything for breakfast and I am so ready to eat something.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Por Favor ir a la proxima mesa de trabajo..

[Please go to the next desk.]
That has been my day. On hold. At work. On hold. At work. Move desk. On hold. At work. Move desk. :]

We have been short handed today, and we should be for the next couple days, which is not good at all. But it does mean more hours. I am 30 minutes away from getting off work, and I am beyond excited. I cannot wait to get off. I have no idea why, or even what is going to happen. But I am uber excited.

Today: Justin and I's picture is in the paper, with our wedding announcement. I am uber excited about it. I need to go get the paper, so that I can save it. I made two photo books, one for me, and one for my parents. The one for my parents is a surprise for my mom. She was really excited when I told her about the one that I had made, so I decided to make one for her. I hope that she likes it. I also got an email that told me I got 50 free prints through shutterfly.com which really tickled my fancy. I llooooove free. Hehe. I have been getting so many free offers. I just cannot wait. I need to get my house all picked up and all the hunting gear washed so that Justin is ready to leave on Thursday to go hunting.

I really would like to order some new stuff before going over there at the end of the month. I was going to go over for opening morning and that week. But there are so many people calling in, and I need all the hours that I can get, and I feel bad when I have to take the dogs to my moms to stay the night. Even one night and they come home exhausted. :]


Monday, August 24, 2009

monday monday. :]

Justin and I had such a great weekend. I worked on Friday, until 8..and by then I was exhausted. I had worked the night before, and gotten off at 7, Justin and I had a councelor appointment at 8:30 and the lady we were there to see did not show up until 9:30, and we had an hour and half appointment, I was so frustrated that we had to wait so long, and that she was so noncholant about it. We went back to my grandma's, and I guess I had fallen asleep in the car but I woke up at 3 in my grandma's spare bedroom. I had to be to work at 4, so I showered and got ready for work. Once I got off work; Justin and I went to dinner with A&A our amazing friends, we went to mexican, and IT WAS AMAZZZZZING. I am beyond in love with it. I had one drink and it about put me to sleep, my eyes were bobbing on the way home.

Saturday; Justin and I spent a long time in bed, we woke up late and put a movie on. Around 3 we finally got up and around. His Sister invited us up for a bbq. We ended up having the most wonderful salmon. Justin and I made fruit salad, and garlic cheese bread, and everything we had was really good. Justin and his Brother-in-law worked on their bows. Since hunting season is so soon. Justin went outside with everyone and shot his bow for awhile. We decided we would go to the County fair with A&A..so I went and met with my sister, and we headed back to PHill to pick up Justin who was still shooting his bow. We went to the fair, and had such a good time. E and I were going to get a cartoon drawing but there was such a long time. We did not want to wait, and they were kinda expensive. After the fair, E, Justin and I went to Dough Co. O-M-G..if you have not had dough co. drive to Eugene, Oregon. And go there. It is soooo good. It is all calzone, and all under $6.25..after dough co. we went to A&A and played redneck life. Which is sooo funny. Justin and I didn't get home until almost 4 in the morning.

Sunday; We slept late, and Justin got a phone call from his sister and she wanted him to pick up his nephew and bring him to the house. Justin was going to shoot his bow, so he just to G home. I had some wedding things to take bake, and so E and K and I went to Target and returned some items. I ended up getting thank you cards, another wall sconce, a couple picture frames and most of my prints all printed. I am going to make a whole nother set of prints for my mom.. She was so impressed by the pictures, she took some of the ones that I only had one copy of, and so I now need to figure out which ones those are. Printing pictures are really expensive. We also ate dinner at my moms, had shish kabobs which were yummy.

Monday; Wellllll now that we are all up to date. I am currently at work, and loooving it. Actually today is kinda hard; I am starving anddd the little kiosk is cooking bacon and eggs, and it is making it worse. I am off work today at 12:45, and Justin and I are going to go over east. Which I am ubbber excited about. I cannot wait. We are going over there to do some scouting for hunting season, and to get where we hunt all ready for when we go over there. I am super duper excited. We leave in just a couple hours. :]

Friday, August 21, 2009

black coffee.

Mmm. Right now, I am wishing that I worked at Riverbend. Mostly because they are always busier than us, and also..because they brew Starbucks coffee. Not the stuff that comes in the gray and red packet, the stuff that kinda taste burnt..even after you put sugar and creamer in it. Tonight..I am drinking it, black with sugar. It is alright. Not as good as my grandmas. But okay. :]

Tomorrow is going to be an impossibly long day. I get off work at 7:15am, Justin has to go to an appointment at 8:30 in Eugene, then I have to go by the social security office and get my new card. [Once I get my new card, I have to send away for my birth certificate. Once I get that, then I get a neeewww license, which I am beyond excited about.] After the social security office, I have every intention of crashing out in my grandma's spare bedroom. I have to work at 4:15, and by 10 or 11, I am going to be running on fumes. Which is not something that I am entirely looking forward to, hense the drinking coffee at 3:15am.

Wonderful. Really. My life is wonderful. Even though J is starting to get a little more stressed than normal with life and bills, and the appointment he has to go to tomorrow, and he is a little bit irritable.. I am just giving him a wide berth and playing nice. :] I hope that everything goes good tomorrow. I am kinda nervous for him, but I think that everything will turn out just fine.

Welp; I am going to go try not to fall asleep. I just edited about a hundred facesheets. That have been piling up in my drawer for the last two weeks. :]

Thursday, August 20, 2009

frustrating; frustrated; frust..well you get the point.

Justin and I have been married, 1 week and 4 days. I know..I know- A LIFETIME. And I am pretty sure, if one more person asks me when Justin and I are going to have children, I might kick them in the teeth.
J and I have been together almost four years, but truely, we have a very set schedule on when we want children. I am currently using Mirena, and have been for years, and I love it, would not change it at all. I love not having to worry about any birth control. I love knowing that we don't always have to be prepared. I have heard from more than one person that people actually asked my family member's if the reason J and I "rushed" into marriage, [I guess planning a wedding for a year, and being engaged to that person for over two years is not long enough in this day and age.] was because we were pregnant. Really? It is not hard to not get pregnant; The ones that do, on "accident" are not pro-active, they don't use their brain, or they are just plain lazy. It is easy and usually in most cases free to get birth control. I know of so many people that should not have reproduced..and gooooosh- even a few people that Lord help us if they have children.

So today, while out I listened to a story from a person, who shall remain nameless, because; well I want to. The person tells me, "Yeah, so and so, wanted to know when you and J were going to have kids? Or if you were already pregnant?" Said person tells me " I told them, that youguys have a plan and that once your ready youguys will be having kids" Then the person tells said person; " Does S even like kids? I could never imagine her with children, I have never even heard her say she liked kids"

Grr. Double Grr. Maybe even triple grrrr. I love kids, and obviously the person doesn't read my blog [because they would know J and I are baaabbbbyyy crazy..but broke and that is why we aren't ttc.], and they haven't talked to me since I was 14 when I said; I never want kids.

I have this image in my mind, of a beige room, with dark cherry wood, salmon colored bedding, a big elephant print on the wall, a window that over looks a garden, or a pretty backyard..and a rocking chair. A rocking chair; that one thing..made me baby crazy, head over heals crrrrrrazzzy for babies. While working for C&J4, rocking the twins was my highlight. It didn't matter what was going on in the world, take a crying baby, change their diaper, put on some slow tunes, sit down and rock, *WHAM* baby stops crying, falls asleep, or sits there and smiles at you. And again- everything in the world makes sence. I know that is not how it always works, but I just cannot wait for those moments of pleasure, of pure love.


On a different note; I am at work..fully in the process of dying. I have eatin nothing but fruits and veggies..and I am pretty sure that there is not one ounce of my body that is not full of gas. I could very well die tonight. It is not like you can just go lay down and die somewhere, while your working a 8 hour shift; No, you have to sit at the desk, and be friendly to anyone that walks by- given at 2:45 in the morning that is a very slim amount of people, but still for that one person that walks by and you don't ackowledge then, more than likely that is the president of the U.S, or the c.e.o of my poe. Or even my next manager, shoot it could be God, and If I snubbed him, then I surely wouldn't get a window seat on the way to Heaven, and I wouldn't get a room with a view, and I wouldn't get to ride horses, without having to first clean stalls; and oh gosh--if only.. I could find a darn pair of boots that looked good over my pants, or maybe even cowgirl boots that were bigger than a size 8. :]

Oh by goly. Lack of sleep. A rockstar, and a couple handfuls of goldfish, is making this post rather random. :]

You know who I miss. Katie. My amazingly wonderful cousin from Bend. She is in Africa/Asia for the next 6-9 months. She is doing God's work. She used to blog all the time, and I loved reading the thoughts and idea's that she had. She is young, but wise for her years. She has gone through so many things, and still manages to put a smile on her face. She truely is one of my favorite relatives, and in this family- that. does. not. happen.- My cousins..are not the best. I just steer clear. Yet we did recently have our G Family reunion..twas enjoyable. Got my picture taken a bit. Talked to one of my relatives, that I never get a chance to see. And, really enjoyed spending time with J and my seeesters.

Hmm, I am going to sit here and think about how much my stomach hurts, and hopefully the time passes. :]

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

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day ten.

As of today; I have been married ten days. I cannot believe that it has really been that long.

In the last 10 days we have: cooked with our new pots and pans, ate with our new silverwear, and used our new dishes, drank out of our new cups, used our new towels, purchased an air mattress and air mattress inflater with wedding money, and most importantly; went on our honeymoon.

see next post for pictures, and a brief summary.

enjoy lovelys. <3

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

a few more pictures; <3 [&& an update]



kinda outta order; but it works.



settin my flowers down.

my besties.

kendal.


kaitlyn.



emeli.




karlea.





gram and aunt judy.



kassity and i.


she caught the flowers.


in the air.


getting ready to throw.


aunt susan.

husband and i.


fixing em's hair.



cutting the cake.




again.



thee cake.


me.





my amazing photographer.
kim; captivating photography.


loooove this picture.


vows.


padre and i.



l-o-v-e this picture


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classic.


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so graceful.


this. is. an. amazing. picture.

world- meet mr. and mrs. holland

me.


amazing.



love this picture.

icky boys.


my beautiful sisters.

kendal.


karlea.

emeli.


kaitlyn.

my family + justin

dad. me. mom.


kaitlyn. kendal. me. emeli.

so; in case you were wondering you need to have your marriage certificate [the legal one], your birth certificate, you current id, and your social security card to get a new Oregon Drivers License- Hi, my name is Shelby, and I officially hate the DMV.