choosing the road less traveled.

Today, I feel like I am moving in slow motion.

I am not sure why. But I feel extremely nervous.

I feel like I need to go in for a pap every week, just

to make sure the cells on my cervix's haven't changed,

or grown into something more, or turned worse.

I am to the point in my life, where I am living for me.

I have a group of friends, that would go to the end

of the world for me, and for them I would do everything

in my power to make their life better for them. But

a few of my friends do not seem present in my life.

I feel like they have forgotten me. I do not get along

with one of their friends, and ever since that moment,

things have changed. I still love this person, but I do not

have time to chase a friendship.

My birthday is TOMORROW. And I am pretty excited.

We are having a big BBQ at the house, we haven't really

ever had a lot of friends and family over to our house since we

moved there. I am hoping that it goes really well. I am going to

do, hamburgers, brats and hot dogs, fruit salad, a birthday cake, potato salad,

chips and dip, maybe a veggie tray, or something else. I am not sure. :)

I have never really planned a BBQ all by myself, at my house.

I am searching craigslist for a coffee table so that I can have my dining room

table back. :) Currently, I have my kitchen table in my living room, with

my TV sitting on it. Classy. I know. So, for now..I am searching..

Well, found some cute ones, hopefully I am able to get them.

I really want to look like I am not WT with my tv on

my kitchen table. lol. But I guess if push comes to shove. I will just move

the tv to the bedroom, and not have anything on the walls. :)