Friday, July 16, 2010

quotes from last night;

"..the only better way to end a horrible day, is to hear that not only does he regret you, but you are the biggest mistake he has ever made.."

"..the only thing better than crying your way through a bottle of wine on the bathroom floor, is watching a cheesy movie on disney chanell eating an entire {BIG} bag of funyuns.."

" cannot always be the fixer. you have to let him go. he doesn't want to be fixed."

My husband and I are having problems.
We've always had some sort of issues.
We've gone to couselors. We've talked about our issues.
Nothing seems to work.

He wants out. He says that all I do is complain and nag at him.
Honestly, I don't feel like I nag or complain.
He made plans with me to hang out, and bailed.
I got upset, and because I got upset he went to stay
with his sister. He says I am a problem causer.
I really do not try to cause problems.

I guess that if he really wants out, then who am I
to beg and plead, after so many years, of fighting.
Of begging, pleading, tears, problems.
I should just let him go.

It is going to be one of the hardest things,
but deep down, I almost want the same thing
he does. We have become just really good roomates.
It will be easier to be single while I am going to school.
I won't feel guilty for staying up late, and doing homework.

I really don't know how this will end up, if we will
get a divorce, if we will stay together.

for now, i am just going to sit here and mope.


  1. Hun I hope things get better... If it's meant to be it will be, but you don't need him walking all over you all the time. He needs to know that you won't always be there and that he cannot treat you that way.

  2. Wow..I don't know that there is anything I can say to help but I am here for you if you ever need to chat. It's amazing how God's plan isn't always 'our' plan! What doesn't kill you make you can do it. Keep your head up! Only time will heal..


  3. Oh Shelby,
    Hang in there and be strong.

    When the right decision is made. It may be painful at the time but it will work out and make you a stronger and better person.

    SSG xxx

  4. I found you via fill in the blanks...I think. Maybe? Who knows, it's hard to keep track :) Anyway, I have no suggestions or really anything revolutionary to say, other than that I'm so sorry you're going through this and I hope you have awesome people in your life lifting you up and giving you the support you need!

  5. Oh No!! Dear girl.. No.... This can't be happening.... things will get alright.... Please don't lose heart.... We are here for you.....


  6. I'm so sorry this is happening right now. Please text or email me if you need to talk. Things will get better and you have a whole group of blog friends that adore you to pieces and will be here no matter what happens.

    Love you pretty lady, keep your head up!

  7. Thank you all for your support and love.

    Love you girls. ♥

  8. Shelby, my heart goes out to you.
    Deep breaths. Lots of deep breaths.
    Things will turn out exactly like they are meant to.
    Sending hugs! XX


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