quotes from last night;

"..the only better way to end a horrible day, is to hear that not only does he regret you, but you are the biggest mistake he has ever made.."

"..the only thing better than crying your way through a bottle of wine on the bathroom floor, is watching a cheesy movie on disney chanell eating an entire {BIG} bag of funyuns.."

"..you cannot always be the fixer. you have to let him go. he doesn't want to be fixed."

My husband and I are having problems.

We've always had some sort of issues.

We've gone to couselors. We've talked about our issues.

Nothing seems to work.

He wants out. He says that all I do is complain and nag at him.

Honestly, I don't feel like I nag or complain.

He made plans with me to hang out, and bailed.

I got upset, and because I got upset he went to stay

with his sister. He says I am a problem causer.

I really do not try to cause problems.

I guess that if he really wants out, then who am I

to beg and plead, after so many years, of fighting.

Of begging, pleading, tears, problems.

I should just let him go.

It is going to be one of the hardest things,

but deep down, I almost want the same thing

he does. We have become just really good roomates.

It will be easier to be single while I am going to school.

I won't feel guilty for staying up late, and doing homework.

I really don't know how this will end up, if we will

get a divorce, if we will stay together.

WHO KNOWS.

for now, i am just going to sit here and mope.