feeling low.

I am having one of those days again, I am out of my happy pills until next week. We are pretty close to being broke, I am not even stressing, it is up to J to figure out a way to make things work. We have money for gas, and we have plenty of food in the house.

Last night J acted as nothing had happened and that everything in our life was perfect, I wasn't ready to let it go just yet. I made him sit down and talk to him about all of the issues that had taken place the other night. We talked through all of our issues. We faught a little, but in the end solved a lot of things that had been bugging us quite a bit. I was glad to actually get a lot of those things off my chest. We don't have a perfect relationship, but it is amazing compared to what it has been in our past, those two people we were years ago, are so unrecognizable to me now. I don't know who they were..certainly not J or I. And I am so glad that we went to counceling, and talked with peers, that we went through with a lot of things, and made the decisions to stick it out.

We got tv last night at the house, and they will be in on Saturday to install it, and as soon as I get my laptop, I will call them to set up internet also. It will be nice to finally have fast internet, rather than the dial up that we've been rocking the last couple years.

Work is slow, which works for me, I am in no mood to deal with people. I just want to get my shift over and head home, and read the rest of my book and cook up a really nice dinner, I am not sure what to cook, but we have quite a bit of good things, and it is just going to be so nice to be able to cooooook. :)